Home, and Yes So Soon...

Well, well...A month in Nor Cal ...and...I'm back in Orange County. Yes a whole month, away and I couldnt hack it. Well it isn't that simple, but Yes I am back home. There was a lot of things that honestly went in to me coming home. First of all I was completely miserable at my new job. I am not a quitter, or a person who goes back on their word, but I knew deep in my heart that I needed to go and that this was not the place for me. I think Northern California was a very cool place to live, and I liked it up there, but the actual job I was in was not something that I could have kept on doing. I have worked with tough kids before, but for some reason this was very difficult for me. My last Saturday at work, I got off and cried, (which I do not do very often) because not only was it a miserable day but I knew that this was not the place for me and I needed to go home. To top things off, my mom is having some health issues, and its for the best right now to be with her. Which leave me in a fun place of looking for a new job and deciding where to go with my life. Its very interesting because this whole time I felt like this job in Nor Cal was where I was suppose to be and that God was truly leading me there. But now I don't really know what the HECK he is up to and where the hell my life is going. I trust in the Lord and know that He is going to do great things in my life, I'm just not completely sure what that is going to look like. Life very much seems up in the air right now and I'm not sure of where I am going. Being an adult sometimes really does suck. I remember as a child that I could not wait to be an "adult" because you got to be indepdent and do whatever you want wherever you want--which is somewhat true, but at a price. Somehow when you are a child, things just make a lot more sense then being a big bad adult. Well I don't know where this is heading but we shall see.....Life..........

S

The Journey Has Begun...

Well I have finally made it to Nor Cal! The drive seriously wasn't bad at all. The drive was exciting as I was making my way to the place I would call home for a whole year. Morgan Hill, CA was my final destination, a little suburb of San Jose. My new neighborhood is nice, but very different from Orange County. I think the major difference, is all of the shopping centers that are in Orange County. Morgan Hill is much more farm-type town and a little bit more in touch with nature--which is very cool, I think, and something different.

I moved in to my new house, which was a lot bigger that I thought it would be. It is not the most glorious, beautiful house you have even seen, but there is something about it I like. I am not going to lie, the kids were kinda tough at 1st. They all thought I was quiet at first, which is not a adjective I have gotten since I was about in junior high, haha. But it can be tough in a new situation, with new kids. I kind of felt like the new kid at school because you can feel the kids kind of judging you and trying to feel out what you are really like. I think by the end of the shift, I was starting to bond more with the guys and feeling more comfortable over all. I am still occasionally having second thoughts sometimes about coming out here and doing this job. There are somedays I know that will be hard, and being away from home and family and friends is sometimes very hard, too. But I think overall, God did lead my to this place. I think I need to stop being so wrapped up in a year from now, or what I am going to do after a year...just enjoy the moment an indulge in the challenges that God is going to put me through this year. I know it takes time in building these relationships with the kids. But overall, I am just thankful for the good experiences so far, and hope and pray that God makes me a stronger person by the end of this experience. Here's to the challenge...

S

Freedom is Here!

FREEDOM HAS FINALLY GRACED ITSELF UPON ME!!After one year of working in my job, the time has come to leave. I am sitting here with my last half hour of my time as a Youth Partner in the Wraparound Program. I am overall a very positive person and always try to live my life in love, just love. But this past week has been a very stressful time and left a bad taste in my mouth. Don't you hate somtimes how one bad week can ruin a whole year of employment. But that's ok...interpersonal office drama is not something that is a concern for me. I am leaving with an overall positive experience-- with great experience to put on my resume and getting the chance to hopefully have some type of impact on my clients. I have met some good friends and got a real taste of being a REAL working adult. (Whatever that means, haha!) So Thank-you CSP Wrap for shaping me as a brand new working, professional individual. And that's all I'm gonna say about that....

Of course my last weekend in OC would not be complete without a little CAMP CAMP CAMP! Weekend Getaway is this weekend and kicked off yesterday. There is nothing like the love of a child with a disability to totally ground you and show you what is important in life. And of course this years' Theme--Christmas in July is TOTALLY FANTASTIC AND MAGICAL!

Countdown to San Jose...3 days and counting!!!!!!!!

Here's to a weekend of a adorable kids, my best friends in the whole world, Christmas in the HEAT, and PACKING PACKING PACKING!!!!!!

Till Next time,

XOXO

S

Blogging due to EXTREME bordem...

I am sitting at my desk at work, going to go completely out of my mind. I am done with all of my work, cleaned out my desk, so the only option is to BLOG, duh?!? I really do not understand how some people work a typical "9 to 5" desk kind of job-- I think I would go out of my mind. I am only in my office today from 9-3, but I already feel my mind turining into complete mush! I have much respect for people who work in a cubical their who lives--I am more of a out in the field type of guy, which is the ONE positive thing about the job I have now (well only for 7 more days) I hope to never have a job the drains your soul and mental well being, haha. Well I guess working in social services/psychology is kind of draining, but I really think I have learned to seperate my personel and working life. You cannot let the stories of these crazy families get to you. It's not that I don't care or am not a caring person, but you really cannot let the weight of your work personally effect you. My life is way to damn important to get all screwed up by another's persons' problem. It's good sometimes to "not have feelings"! I think that makes you stronger as person in some circumstances.

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I recently have been chatting with girls on a Catholic dating website (Don't you DARE judge me!) Last night I kind of got this relazation...I really want a girlfriend. Someone to listen to me vent (i'll listen to her too), to hang out with, to get all giddy with feelings when you think of them, make out once in awhile--all the good stuff. Which presents a complicated sernario--should I just wait and find someone up North? Or do the long distance thing when i come home? A part of me thinks that Northern Cali girls will be a bit refreshing and not as superficial as girls here in Orange County. But who knows what girl will be out there for me. I guess only time and heart that is full of hope will tell...

S

I Don't Think I Can Make It...Ok I guess i can

So the countdown continues to San Jose...I only have about a week and a half in my current job--but honestly, I do not know if I am going to make it!!! This office I work in seriously the most f'-ed up place I have EVER EVER worked in my short career! Our director is seriously so dumb, unexperienced, and so out of touch with her staff more that ANY other place. I have never been at a job where everyone wants to quit--it doesn't really say a lot of the managment of the place. Everyone is so scared all the time around here and it really spills into the whole atmosphere of the place. I just count my blessings that I am getting the heck out of here before the chain around our necks gets even tighter.

IN BRIGHTER NEWS...

I am getting more and more exicted about moving and starting work in San Jose. For a young man who has experienced the world, but always thought of Orange County as home--leaving for at least a year is a very exciting prospect. Everything seems to be going my way and it really makes me realize how STRONG God's postive presence is in my life. I think there are so many dark times and pain and suffering. But the sunshine does always cover the rain. And God is always here for us making our lives so wonderful in His light.

Here's to packing and getting everything ready to go. Till next time!!

S

A Journey that is soon to start...

Well this is my first ever blog entry...I am unofficially a blog virgin now, ha! Well I decided to start this blog because I am spreading my wings, leaving my nest know as Orange County and going to start an amazing adventure for a year up in Northern California. Now even though my journey is only taking me 6 hours away from home, this is a big step for me to be living somewhere else for a year. this is a big step leaving all of my family and friends, but I know that this is what God is calling me to do. I don't know how exactly things will be working out, or who things are going to look up there, all I know is that in two weeks...SAN JOSE or bust! Here's to the journey...

XOXO

S